Wednesday, May 17, 2006

A Parallel to Bob Dylan's life??

"I'd seen and heard trains from my earliest childhood days and the sight and sound of them always made me feel secure. The boxcars, the iron ore cars, freight cars, passenger trains, Pullman cars. There was no place you could go in my hometown without at least some part of the day have to stop at intersections and wait for the long trains to pass...The sound of trains off in the distance more or less made me feel at home, like nothing was missing, like I was at some level place, never in any significant danger and that everything was fitting together."
~Bob Dylan, Chronicles: Volume One
My thoughts exactly. I could not agree more. Although the train whistles are almost annoyingly loud here some days, I would miss them if they were gone. I need that noise. I can't sleep if it's too quiet. I need to know life is going on still outside my windows. There's some sort of strange comfort in the whole thing. At the real root of it though, as Dylan points out, is that it makes me feel at home. It makes me feel safe because it makes me think of LaGrange, my family, my childhood. I can connect so many memories to trains or railroad tracks. Very few of them actually have to do specifically with the trains, but since they were such a presence it all connects back. I suppose it is sort of like the whole idea of how a smell can stimulate a memory. What makes a sound any different?

Saturday, May 13, 2006

Bittersweet transitions

Well, it's official. It may have taken me eight months to go through with it, but I am a Wisconsin resident. The man no longer thinks I'm living in Illinois. About a week ago I made my way to the Department of Motor Vehicle in South Milwaukee. The people you'll find at the South Milwaukee DMV are almost as entertaining as the people at the Plank Road Walk in Clinic. Of course, by entertaining I mean totally annoying. Luckily, the time I spent there was probably the shortest amount of time an individual has ever spent in an DMV. A major plus in the whole experience of changing my drivers license and plates.

Unfortunately, Wisconsin passed a law in the last few months that prohibits individuals who are getting a Wisconsin ID for the first time to take it home with them that day. Something about fraud. I blame Illinois good ol' governor George Ryan for this pain in my neck. Apparently some of those truck drivers involved in that scandal then started coming up here to get their licenses. Super. So, I had to wait almost a week for my ID to arrive. This wasn't such a big deal during the week, but it sure did put a damper on any weekend fun.

The whole transition is very bittersweet. It's weird to look at my car every morning and not see Illinois plates, and every time I open my wallet it freaks me out that the ID says Wisconsin. At the same time, to a certain extent it makes me feel like I belong here. I'm not just a college student spending some time here. It also means that I've committed myself to living here for awhile, because I'm not about to go through all that changing stuff again any time soon. That part is a little sad. I love Illinois, and Illinois will always be home. Sometimes, though, you need to just make a commitment and let yourself grow. Living in Wisconsin on my own is letting me grow. As cliche as it sounds, I don't think I'd be who I am if I hadn't been living here for the last eight months. Though, it will be hard to face everyone back home with an Wisconsin driver's license and plates.

I may have made the plunge into life in Wisconsin, but hear me, I am no cheesehead.